at least theres that

okay, so now I have 100 edits on the total drama wiki. sometimes I just don't know though. It's kind of tough to edit something that's been edited already. my blogs really silly, I never know what's going on in irc, no one ever says anything on my talk page. you know I've actually been there since september. september and only at 100 now. cripes that's pathetic. and my deviantart site is even worse. no one looks at it. I love tdi exile's stuff but can't get the hang of downloading it, what's wrong with this thing anyway, I thought windows 7 was supposed to be so great! I swear, sometimes...

plainting

I hate being tired all the time and I hate being sick. No one respects me at all or appreciates anything I ever do for them. When I need something done for me, no one ever wants to do it. Every time I'm doing something around the house that's tough for me there's no one to help out even though when they do simple chores they whine like babies for me to help them. No one helps me prepare dinner, no one helps with the laundry, no one offers to help with the dishes. They just sit there watching tv all day and they keep getting in the way. When it comes time to take me to a doctor appointment or to pick up medicine at the pharmacy no one wants to help out with that either. They would rather just stay home and do nothing because absolutely nothing goes on where we live. The only place anyone ever goes anymore is to bingo. I feel like a fool for spending all of that money. All of that money on Christmas gifts for people that pretty much don't even like me. If they weren't related I'm sure they wouldn't. Money on food, all of that damn food. Chicken dinners, pizzas, subs, cheeseburgers, since the summer time, never really a thank you. They eat my food, they drink my iced tea, and I'm supposed to keep letting them leech off of me when no one ever wants to do anything for me?