the girl with too many worries

I know exactly what to stop for lent. After today's cancellation of that dentist appointment I could have totally went to, that's it I've had it with myself. I'm going to quit being so anxious and phobic of everything. If I had to guess I'd say that's probably where my migraines come from, it's why I never really eat, it's the cause of all of my problems and I just can't stand it. The way my stomach feels lately maybe I should try relaxing a little and remebering that these things won't hurt me as much as I think they will. Being scared all the time, that's going to hurt. I don't get to see my therapist enough so we never really get to discuss phobias much. My parents give me a lot of trouble too and there's always a delightful story about them first or my other relatives or neighbors. The worst? I don't know. I worry a lot about germs since I was in the hospital with that virus two years ago. Everything has to be clean. Germs, dirt, I have a severe blennophobia too. That's terrible when just about everything around you is slimy if you think about it. The awful things like boogers, barf, and mud and also the nice things like shampoo, lotion, and soap. It drives me crazy! Sometimes there's a bumpy texture into the nice stuff too and it's kind of like boogery puke! I hate that with such a passion! *whahhhh!* Lent for us starts Monday. Which is always silly since Tuesday they eat meat again and Wednesday they don't. Then it's no meat Wednesdays and Fridays until Easter. In fact if Sidney's birthday party is on his actual birthday we can't eat meat that day either. I better get eating. I also won't eat seafood. My dad got pretty sick on it once.