for how sick i've been in the last two weeks, actually more than that, whoah. it's been one bad migraine headache after another. i'm not sure what's causing them. the rise in temperature or what? because this last week has been cool. it could be stress, it probably is. things like my brother leaving for college that sets them off. i can't help but worry about someone who's going to be three hours away and doesn't really do much of a good job of taking care of himself. i mean he can make food and wash his own clothes and crap it's just i don't know, he keeps calling like every two weeks saying he's caught some kind of flu. and now they're saying that colleges are going to have swine flu epidemics and have kids quarantined and that just scares me. him and kelly would be like the first ones to get it. because they would be i know how they are. he won't even get a flu shot. he's afraid to i think, or doesn't belive in them or something. i even got one the other year and still wound up in the hospital. that was the worst. the hospital on easter weekend. all i kept hearing was that guy crying he wanted to go home. and the food was so terrible. they made me eat mashed potatoes made with water because the doctor wouldn't let me have any dairy for a week. so that meant no easter eggs, no chocolate, no homeade bread, nothing enjoyable. and they bother you every ten minutes, even during the night, with injections and bloodwork and breathing treatments. which makes me unhappy because now i have to go at the end of the month for a sleep study. my nuerologist thinks i get too many migraines because i'm sleeping too much and might not be getting the right kind of sleep at night. so now i'm kind of really worried because i know already what that's going to require and it's scaring me. oh, i don't mean staying there overnight or eating their food, i already know that. they actually want me there until almost four the next day. i know the worst part about the whole thing and i have no idea how i'm even going to sleep if i have to... if they're going to...ha ha i'm not typing this^_^ no way i can't