why is it cold already

yeah what the heck? it's already almost november. the time is moving way too fast. not that I want things dragging along or anything but I'm just saying. that baby was in aggie's stomach and we just found out about him and now he's out. Jacob was born last friday. my sister's baby is coming in december, and Ryan and Marley are already... well Ryan is two and a half in december, Marley's one and a half in january, Sidney's almost three! where does the time go? it's not fair to me because I spend a lot of time just not feeling that good and suffering with migraines. I'm not too concerned with the ms or the lupus they're telling me I may have. the thing that keeps me run down are these damn headaches. with only nine imitrex a month I can't function. and my parents, oh they just set off the stress so bad. do they have to talk so loud? does everything have to get them mad? and every little tip or tap will set off a stress headache or make me jump because they have me that way. I want to get away from the two of them so bad. that's what I need, that's what would cure me, a vacation away from my family. for like a month or two. actually, you know what? a year or two.

No way. that can't be serious. you win an actual total drama island in that contest? that cosplay/ pumkin contest thing?! well, I was going to do a costume and I should have. the original plan was izzy but I kind of got afraid to thinking how was I going to wind up with orangy red hair. I know how to get it all curly like that it's just... orange? I don't know. then I was going to do courtney which isn't much of a challenge, I just really need to find the right... Okay honestly I do have the right clothes, it's just the matter of a haircut and that's my phobia factor so I decided not to force myself. so I'm stuck with this dopey pumkin of owen that had moldy white things on the back which I cut off and the smell of the insides nearly made me puke. ooh that was fun. I'm pretty sure the pics never made their destination and there are a million better pumkins than mine. how do I know? there are a million better ones than mine around the neighborhood! I saw a show on the food network about it. I think I saw a two year old carve a pretty good pumkin with an actual kit you buy at the store, not a knife and fingers like me, and they didn't pass out from the smell either! I'm so embarassed!

That sleeping study went okay. I can't say I liked it because I didn't. that was awful! being hooked up with all of those wires. carrying them wherever I went. kind of felt like falling over when I noticed they had to stick the wires on with green slimy stuff. that was not fun at all. not something I'm going to forget anytime soon. but I guess I did okay.