that whole total drama island/action summer challenge thing i made up? i pretty much did everything on the list! even the skyview and i was really scared dangling over all those rollercoasters. i'm not ! more details when there's more time!

i'm in again today. there see, my brother got a haircut, he didn't die. oh shut up. they don't wash guys hair or do anything gross like that. they get it so easy. s don't, it's such a ... blechh. really i'm going to die on tuesday. no dentist today though. they cancelled it until august. so i guess if that filling breaks apart or falls out i'll have to give them a call but otherwise everything should be alright. i just have to stay away from really sticky stuff which i don't eat anyway. i have more of the sweet tooth for chocolate and ice cream. a day without chocolate is impossible. ooh yeah so the other day we got to go shopping in wyomissing at the berkshire mall for my birthday. i was supposed to go on my birthday but my mom ruined it and said not until this week so whatever but we just recently went. i've never been to a hot topic store before. i got to see all this really cool invader zim stuff but decided to buy a flapjack and chowder shirt instead cause for some reason mom thinks i don't have money to splurge like i do and she gets all scared. if i were there on my own i would have. and if it were total drama island action stuff i would have totally done the splurging anyway. it was a great day. ice cream, shopping, we even saw the bar where jon was cheating on kate. great day. nice birthday present:)

whoah they don't give you that much time to be here. i have to leave in like three or four minutes. that bus is always late anyhow. i can't believe myself, not going last week. um, well, the whole secret phobia thing i don't like talking about. what the heck is wrong with me?! there's no reason i couldn't have gone. now it's just eating away at me and i still have to go next week it's not like something i can avoid. no not the hersheypark thing, i'm going just not yet. i mean yeah that's scary too just not as bad as this one. it's the whole haircut thing. it has me so worked up. i just can't do it. i can't even imagine going. i don't know, i just can't. and oh, yeah, my filling broke yesterday so all that drilling on monday that the dentist did meant nothing because i guess he's just going to have to fix it again tomorrow. this summer just isn't fun. i'm going to follow more blogs when i'm in next week. at least my birthday went well. i had a total drama action cake. but i got courtney. everyone else ate duncan and mom took the owen piece in her lunch. i wanted duncan.

i'm going to hersheypark in july i guess. that's when my dad's home and all he does is sit around and be annoying all day so i'll have to get away from him. my plans to take aggie and ryan are gone though. she doesn't really want to take him somewhere like that. she says she gets a headache when she's out at an amusement park all day. i have trouble with headaches too but i take my migraine medicine and stay hydrated like i'm supposed to. you know how many nightmares i've had about hersheypark since i've been there when i was a kid? a lot! that big double ferris wheel thing is gone. it used to board passengers while the other side was up in the air. now they just have a plain old ferris wheel like the one i won't ride at knoebel's. and they still have the skyview, and the kissing tower, and the flying falcons which is really scary looking. i don't care i want to ride it anyway. yeah, i'll see how my stomach's feeling once i get there and actually come face to face with the thing. it's easy to talk. it's even easy to talk about something like the monorail but when you're afraid of heights it's a whole other story. that was kinda high. i've only ever been on the train rides since i was ten and that incident happened with my brother and the rollercoaster. not to say it would happen to me, it just scared the snot out of me that's all. he got so sick and threw up so much. wasn't he puking up poop and or something? he was fine after a while, i mean like after a half hour or so, but it just sticks in my mind and eats at me. i never want to go on anything intense with that kid ever again. and oh that's right. the same guy who goes on the wipeout last year and makes me run away to the gift shop and i'm wondering why him and kelly are just sitting there all wierd and quiet and all. why? because he puked on it! then he goes on the balloon ride and pukes on that! that's good, real good, just what i needed to see. that'll get me over the whole riding things at the park fear. i'll never grow up. remember before all this happened how much fun riding the whipper cars used to be? that was my favorite ride. i'd go on like eight times in a row. little brothers ruin everything! except free tickets to hersheypark, can't argue with that.

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I don't have much time. I never do. I like to come here and look at the Total Drama Action stuff online. Especially the offical blog. Which I honestly tried to put up as a friend or something and it doesn't work, nothing in this library works! Livejournal isn't working anymore, Facebook won't work, won't work, ugh it's sickening! I want to do stuff too! I probably am more a fan than anyone else, plus I am dying to get into animation and I'm stuck home with no opportunities in the middle of nowhere! Just me and my poor people's screengrabs. A load of sketchbooks and no one to care about them. And my old lj friends from college must think I abandoned them too. That's not cool. And I've been meaning to e-mail my cousin, it looks like him... in that vile cabinet comercial. Either that or I'm losing my damn mind.

what's heather doing in that one commercial. with that bowl? see, now that makes me uneasy. i thought i saw a pic of gwen online with purple hair and all and i just was like now i'm going to be all scared and all? no i mean, shut up:(

Livejournal won't let me post, I don't know what's going on over there. Eh, I do care since everyone else is over there and stuff and we're like friends again. *sigh* I'm not doing too well. It seems like I get a migraine every day. And whenever I want to do something, someone or something is in the way. Yesterday afternoon our power went out. This is May already! Why am I feeling like this! Oh and the transportation program keeps being all weird and either gets me to my appointments too early or late or not at all, or they may just be y on the phone to me, so I don't know about going to physical therapy anymore. It's three times a week! It's helping but it takes about five hours out of the day. I have a bad inner ear problem which really makes me unhappy and that's what I was going for. We may get free admission to Hershey Park this year and they have like the coolest rides ever and I really don't want to worry about getting sick. I want to go on that big double ferris wheel thing, and the kissing tower, and the swing ride, and I sooo wish I could get on the roller coasters. We're going to take Ryan. It's going to be so cool! I can't be throwing up!

I'd rather start a whole other thing away from livejournal. I'm not saying no one will know it's here, I just want a new start. Adding all those people to my friends list and only having one of them friend me makes me feel so stupid. Like all those people from the old journal that think I did something wrong are laughing about it. I didn't do anything wrong. Breaking a relationship with someone is not doing something wrong. People who are supposed to be your friends not understanding your side of it all and blaming you for everything that's what's wrong! I was a lot younger than and wasn't comprehending that a long distance relationship couldn't work, I didn't want to. School was so hard for me all I needed was someone to talk to and someone who cared about me and no one else was helping. Even when I went home on the weekends, my parents weren't interested in my feelings. Why can't anyone understand that?